My Walk with Jesus
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On Febuary 4th, 2007 I decided that I had enough of seeking God for myself and saught Him for Him.
The first night I just prayed in the spirit and sang a few songs to Him,
nothing spectacle happened. The next night I realized that I didn’t want
to make a ritual out of seeking Him so I asked the Holy Spirit to lead me
in the right path to have a successful evening with my Father. I praised
Him and worshipped Him. I started praising Him in tongues and something
different started to happen. I began to get drunk. After getting pretty
smashed in the spirit, I said something dumb. It was really smart, but I
didn’t realize what I was saying until He honored it.
Every
time in the past when the Spirit of God shows up and I get drunk I could
only go to a certain point and then stop. That night I asked Him to get me
to that same point that I had always gotten too and then go one extra
level. Boy was this a mistake, at first. God will give what you ask for if
you are ready to receive it and I guess I was ready.
Wow,
did I get drunk. I was trying to sit in His presence but I was about to
tumble out of the chair. I want to tell you something about this kind of
movement of God. If you want the fullness of the move of God, you need to
move when God says to move and do what He asks you to do.
I see
things instead of hearing things most of the time. As I was dancing before
the Lord, I closed my eyes and saw myself sitting in a chair in my prayer
room. So I got up and went and got that chair and sat in the chair and
prayed to Him in the spirit just like I saw in the vision. As I was
praying again I closed my eyes and I saw myself on my knees praying in the
spirit. So I got up and turned around and prayed on my knees. I thought
this will be a cinch. But I was wrong. I want to honor my Father by being
on my knees, but my body structure prevents me from being on my knees for
any long period of time. I stayed on my knees as long as I could. As I
couldn’t take it any longer, so I got up and sat back down in my chair. I was
struggling up to that point with my prayer language, but I think YHWH
honored my obedience with me getting on my knees that when I turned back
around to pray, I took off in the spirit.
After a
while I couldn’t sit straight in the chair and that is when I started to
get drunk.
So I
was one level past where I had been before in the drunkenness of God. I
guess that would be the level of anointing of God. So I got up and lay on
the bed in the prayer room. I was sitting up in the bed as I got to
thinking that I am drunk on the spirit of God and all I took that night
was God. In the past I had taken sinus medication that could make you
sleepy before seeking God and I thought that was what was making me drunk,
but all I had that night was seeking God for Himself and not for me.
Finally
my flesh got to the point it couldn’t pray anymore and I stopped praying
and just laid my head on the pillow. As I laid there I started to see
something in what I think now was an open vision. I didn’t know what to
tell the congregation on Sunday due to I didn’t know how to describe what
I was seeing, but now I think it is an open vision where I can just walk
into the vision at any time.
As I
began to watch, I saw through my eyes it was a big white wall. It was made
of block with black mortar. There was a large door there with what seemed
to be grapefruit halves all over the door, except they were white in
color. The door was bumpy with these half grapefruits. I got confused and
asked God how do I get into the other side of the wall. The door was there
but I couldn’t see how to get through it. He said to push on the door. As
I pushed on the door, the door split in the middle and opened. It looked
to be a single door but turned out to be a double door.
As I
walked through the door, I saw clouds all around on the ground. In front
of me I saw I large fortress like structure that had a large black
drawbridge type gate at the entrances. You couldn’t see through it, but
you could tell it was a gate. As I was looking around I started to wonder
where everyone else was. I was told to keep looking I would find them. But
I couldn’t see anything due to the clouds on the ground. So I told the
Lord I couldn’t see to walk around, I was afraid to walk on the clouds. So
a large hand came down and with a Wisk broom swept the clouds out of the
way and there was a path of off white bricks as the walk where the clouds
were. So I walked toward the door.
As I
got close to the door I couldn’t figure out how to get into the door. And
I heard to ask Jesus. Jesus said I am the way, the truth and the life and
no comes to the Father except through me. So I asked Him to open the door
and the door started lowering. As the door came down I saw Jesus standing
on the other side of the door. He was wearing a white robe with a brown
sash around His waistline. He had long hair and a brown beard and He was
welcoming me to come through the door.
As I
started to walk onto the door, I looked down and my foot turned from my
normal foot into a kid like foot, sort of like a Nike high top sneaker. As
I walked across this solid door, and got to Jesus He told me to look up.
When I looked up I saw the stars. It wasn’t dark, but I could see the
stars. I have always loved to sit and look at the stars and one of my
wishes is to have a home in heaven where I can look at the stars. I have
been told by so many people that God is light and you won’t be able to see
the stars. But I did and I can still see them. It was light all around but
I could still see the stars. And then I looked down expecting to see
darkness or clouds, but what I saw was earth. Not earth far off, but earth
as if I was standing in my own yard. I was standing on grass and dirt.
For
some time now I have been having ideas about multiple realms of God. For
example, when the disciples set sail in the boat and were out about 3 or
3½ miles they saw Jesus walking on the water. Now most people haven’t
thought about this, but the wind was blowing and the waves were high and
they saw Jesus walking on the water. For Jesus to walk that far in a
storm, He would have to run all the way out there. He would have had to
run up and down waves to get to the boat and then be exhausted by the time
He got to the boat. I know He was God, but He was also human. Skipping on
in to the word a little Phillip was translated into another town. Other
stories in the bible refer to they were there and then they were not. So
how did they go? I believe Jesus walked through a realm that is shorter
than ours and He came out before they could see Him. I have a theory on
these realms and I may try to draw them out and place them on the webpage.
So
while I was standing on earth in Heaven I realized that I could be on
earth and in heaven at the same time. Heaven is on earth and all we have
to do is walk into it. So we began to walk and I noticed all these other
people that were walking as if they were looking up at Jesus like I was as
I was walking through Heaven with Jesus. I told Jesus that I thought if we
had a personal relationship with Jesus on earth that we would have the
same in heaven. He said they are doing the same thing you are doing. They
have made it to the Emerald city in their spirits and are walking around
with me just as you are with me. They can’t see you but you are privileged
to see them to answer your prayers. I questioned how two people could be
together and looking up in the middle to see what as I didn’t know. It was
one person on one side and one person on the other side looking up to see
Jesus standing in the middle. I asked who they were and He said they were
two who were joined as one. Married couples seeking Jesus together and
they had found Me (Jesus) here as you have. I wonder why I didn’t see
Renee and I was told that it wasn’t time for her to be seen up there and
if she was there I wouldn’t notice her for I (Jesus) would be your focal
point.
As we
continued to walk toward the actual castle inside the inner walls I
realized that what I had seen with the two outer walls were the same as in
King Solomon’s Temple and the Tent of Meetings. In the Tent of Meetings
there was an outside wall of curtains that went completely around the
actually tent itself. Then inside the tent courtyard you saw the Tent. If
you went inside the Tent then there was another room where God would come
down and sit on top of the Ark of the Covenant.
In Solomon’s Temple it was the same thing. You had an outer wall, then you had the outside temple and then once you were inside the temple, you had the Holy of Holies. That is the way it is in this open vision. I went through an outer wall, then into the big drawbridge and then I was making my way to the Holy of Holies. As Jesus and I started up the ramp to the Holy of Holies I looked down at the brick paved ramp and it was gold, but you could see through it, it isn’t something that I can explain, you have to go see it for yourself. I really can’t explain the depths that this dream carries so if you want to see it for yourself you will have to go see it.As we walked up the ramp there was another one of those black doors, I asked Jesus why He used wood and He said it wasn’t wood it was a rare black marble. Two solid pieces that swung open in the middle as a double door. And there it was, on the other side of the doors, the Holy of Holies. I was beginning to get scared to go on any further, but I had Jesus so I figured if I was going to release everything to God and seek Him I needed to go ahead with Jesus and not be scared. As we started into the Holy of Holies I realized that I had been here before. It was marbled floor, but one piece that stretch throughout the entire floor. There was a white marble strip on the outside of the green marble in the middle of the floor. I said this is pretty marble and Jesus said it was Jade, not marble. I didn’t ask what the other white part was, I guess I still could as I can still see in that dimension. As I looked down on the floor I realized that I couldn’t see my reflection on the mirror like finish on the floor, but I could see Jesus’ reflection on the floor. He spoke before I could ask and said, You are not really here only through faith are you here, but I am here. That is why you can see me and you can’t see yourself. When we got closer to the throne, I really got scared and I asked Jesus why I was scared. He said when your earthly father left you as a child, you judged him and was scared because he left you. So I asked to let me go take care of that. As let go of Jesus I was back in my prayer room. I forgave my father and asked God to forgive me. Then I was standing beside Jesus again. When I got back I ran up to the throne and sat on the floor. I was a small child with kid blue jeans on, Nike High tops, green baseball cap and green shirt. I was sitting up at God looking as if I was getting something really big. I kept looking as if I kept seeing dimensions of God that I never seen before. As I saw myself sitting on the floor, I looked back and saw Jesus. I was standing next to the throne at this point looking up at the Father who sat in Abraham Lincoln chair in the Lincoln’s memorial except Lincoln wasn’t there it was God. It was a spirit, it was a ball of light. I can’t explain what I saw, but I knew who it was. I asked God how I could see Him without dying and He said I am looking at you through Jesus and you are looking at me through Jesus, that is why He said in the scriptures that when you see the Son you see the Father. I was at peace with that and went on. Later I was looking off to the side of Father and saw what seemed to be a large ball of cement. I know it wasn’t but that is the only way I could explain it. The Father started tell me something, and then He said all this is yours son. I said I don’t understand. He told me that everything He owned was mine. I still didn’t understand it due to I never fully understood what my father had was mine. It just never sunk in. As I was writing this I had a heart change and realized that every thing that God has given me in heaven and on earth is everything, even the stuff I have not possessed. It was between me and Him. But what about the others? And He said that is between Me and them. People freak out about what others have when in fact they have equal sharing in it all. If I got a spoon from God and it was the only spoon like that and somebody else wanted that spoon. All they would have to do is seek God and they would have that very spoon except it would be through the relationship between you and God. Same spoon different relationship. One on One thing. I can’t really explain that so seek God for the answer. The next morning when Renee and I were reading the Word, she read about the Pharisees giving Jesus a hard time about Him being on equal footing as God by calling Himself the son of God. Right then I understood what God meant the night before that everything that belongs to God belongs to me. I realized that what satan has taken from me and I have been claiming back like money, it then became a reality that God owned it all and if I am a co-sharer of His money then I was asking the wrong way. I needed to command satan to give me back my money instead of “the” money that he stole from me. I understood what the fullness of Col. 2:9-10 meant and I am now able to call those things forth. This was earlier Wednesday morning and on Wednesday night I was back before the Father again, this happened all week until Friday when I was doing something else for God. Sunday morning I was in church and as I was singing to the Lord I went back into the throneroom of God. I began to intercede over the church through warfare dance and I saw the River of God burst off the throne and flow through the throneroom. It filled the Holy of Holy’s with the river. It was more like a pool on the floor than a river, but it was a river. One lady in church said that God was in the river and in my open vision she was right. The river was coming from the throne and also Jesus was sitting in the river, so it was both. As I was watching people from our church began to pop up from under the water and stand in the presence of God. I realize that as they released there cares of the world they would sync up with God and walk into the throneroom of God. After church and sometimes on Monday afternoon, I saw those who popped up from beneath the water as they stood there they became as little children. There was one person that wouldn’t become child-like for he was hanging on to something that he wouldn’t let go of. I will continue this vision as the vision continues. As I remember things about this I will revise it also. There is a lot more I forgot, but it will come back to me. See you in the city! Richard
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